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A Thanksgiving to Remember
I try to focus on the positive aspects of the world, even when I am aware of all the negatives. Sometimes, you get into a position where those negatives seem overwhelming. I'm taking a page out of Rudyard Kipling by picking myself up and dusting myself off, but I will share the current level of stress in my life.First, I've been out of work since April. While this has troubled me, it hasn't stopped me from being a positive person. I ran out of unemployment in October but at the time I had several interviews and felt like I was only a few weeks from starting back on my feet. That changed.
Second, when my unemployment ended, I was eligible for Federal, but there was a wrinkle... When I came back from France, my company brilliantly had me employed in California, despite always living in Texas. This means that I have wages and unemployment insurance in California. In addition to them having an antiquated system for handling unemployment claims, they are understaffed and have massive unemployment. Needless to say, there has been a gap in my benefits that has caused me serious financial problems.
My family has been great, they've even taken me in when my lease ended and I couldn't stay in the apartment anymore because it was leased out. Unfortunately, that means my cats and I are living in somewhat smaller conditions that previously and it's becoming a bit tight in there.
The big blow came this week. My girlfriend, who I truly adore decided that, despite all her previous protestations to the contrary, we needed to break up. She's done this before, but, I somehow think that the day before Thanksgiving is a pretty significant day to break up. I know she needs time on her own: there have been times when she wasn't really in the relationship and there are personal things she needs to focus on. But, she's been hugely important to me and the loss of her at this time has taken an already bad situation and pulled the rug out from underneath me.
So, with all this what do I have to be thankful for? Well, I have good friends all over the world. Quite a few here, as well. I have some hope that maybe this situation won't last forever. Maybe I'll have a job. Maybe I can start over again. Maybe it will get better, soon. I can only hope. Finally, I'm writing again. Some part of me wants to write professionally. Maybe this will be a turning point and I'll get one of my novel ideas written. All-in-all, I have my health, I have a place to live and my bills will get paid. I have everything I need but the love of a good woman. Eventually, I'll have that too, I hope. I'm just impatient.
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Copyright: 2009-11-27 20:53:28